Being an Aunt is probably the best thing that ever happened to me. I use to roll my eyes when people when on and on about their children...but now I understand that I just didn't get it.
There is the most precious magic that happens with children. You just...melt. My 6 nieces and nephews have changed my life. Three of them were born after my illness knocked me flat on my butt. But this one..Kaylee, remembers me before the Costo. world dominated. And for that, I'm oober thankful...she talks about watching me on stage, she's learned the songs to the musicals I've done. And she loves me if I'm on stage...or just laying on the couch in pain, which is happening a little less these days. yay!
On Saturday I went to meet my awesome family at the park, aching to run and play with the kids. So I walked over the swing set and sat down on the inviting swing. Kaylee looked up at me and asked me to push her on the swing, "cause that would be so fun!"... and my heart just sank. I looked at her and said, "Kaylee, you give me 2 months, and this summer, I will be able to push you on that swing"...and she goes, ".....that's okay, I'll just push you then." And with that, she hopped off her swing, giving it up to the 5 year old who was eying the swing real estate, and gently began pushing me. I would have cried a month ago. But on that day, I said, "thanks my little angel, you are the heart of God, you know that?"...ooooookay, maybe there was a small tear.
So to those in pain and struggling on this Easter weekend, may you feel the heart of God pushing you on your journey when you don't have the strength to push yourself. And if you don't want to swing...that's okay, He can sit quietly with you in the sun, just so you that He's there.