Hello precious readers!
So, I'm taking the plunge in my new Celiac direction and will not longer be writing on my Costochondritis blog...which is so weird. For almost a year, this blog and you all have been such sweet friends to me on many dark days.
I will leave this blog up for many years to come for all you Costochondritis sufferers that are living with this terrible condition both now and in the future. To those who I've walked with for this past year, thank you for your support, your love, and your encouragement. To those who are currently being thrown into the pain of this disease and seeking answers, you are not alone. The pain you feel is real, it's not invisible, and it's debilitating in more than just the physical realm. So please let me validate you, and send you many hugs of support.
That being said, I do want to say this. This past year I've learned more about Costochondritis than I could ever have imagined. And although it's a nasty and quite rude condition, hear me when I say that if you have this condition long term and it will not go away....do not, I beg you, continue to seek pain killers, seek the source of your pain. Look into auto-immune disorders and other weird conditions. I don't say this to scare anyone, I say it to give you hope. Don't take this pain at face value...it's a chameleon. Look past the pain and go after the reason for it. Dig, Dig, Dig....and don't give up. It took me almost 4 years with this chest pain that has taken my breathe away and stolen so many beautiful moments from me to finally find the source, my Celiac. I know that I'm healing and moving on. But I promise you, there is a reason for your pain. And when you are tired and weak, take some time to pray, recover, relax, and then continue to be your own advocate, no matter how crazy other people or doctors think you are, don't give up. The day I found out the reason behind my pain...my world changed in a single instant. And I just know in my heart that yours can too. That fact that you are on this blog, seeking answers is awesome, and I just know that those who don't give up along with the grace and direction of God can have that life changing moment too, where it all becomes clear, the clouds part, and the violent storm that has engulfed your life can be a memory of the past.
As per me, I know the road ahead will be slow going, but I'm no idiot, I know how blessed I am to know what's going on in my body. And I thank God for that every day. I know this next year will be a year or 2 of healing, of trying to get my body back to where it can handle way more than it can now. So for now, I'm going to take one day at a time, start recording music in my home town since I can't travel to NYC, and update my Celiac blog. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. But today, that's all I got. And I'm content with that... peaceful...grateful.
Love to you all,